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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I Thought Exercise was GOOD for Stress!!



I think it's a combination of things. I'm almost sure it isn't ONLY because I'm almost 50 years old. (OMG, just looking at that number makes me want to shriek!) But whatever the reason, I am not bouncing back into running like I used to. It's taking forever to progress back to 3.1 miles. And I'm s-l-o-w. Very.




A few days back, I ran maybe a mile on the road. Took about twelve minutes. The next day, I pushed it out a little further. Fourteen minutes. Today, I ran a mile and a half. Twenty minutes!! Grr! I need three miles in 35 minutes. At this rate, it's going to take me over 40 minutes to run just 3.1 miles. I have until April 9. Race day.

Right now, I'm just hoping I finish without having to walk part of it.

I've never felt this wiped out in all my life. I know that the uncertainty of the whole job thing and where will we be and what will we be doing is chewing on my life line. But I think it's interfering with exercise too.

I plod on, though. I will prevail. In fact, if we end up in Pensacola, I could return to SC in some of my previous awesomeness as I'd be able to run most of the winter. Unless... it really is that I'm almost 50 and...

Shhh. Hush now, other self. We are as young as we feel. Which right now is about 102.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Just saying

Oscar Wilde was weird.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

No.

I imagine that in the kingdom of God, where the new heaven and earth reign, there will be no winter.

No. There will be winter. I will not feel the cold.

No. I will feel the cold. It will not be unpleasant.

I will know it. I will even feel it. But it will not make me shiver.

No. I will shiver. But it will be from pleasure, not to keep my core temperature from dropping.

Today, even with the heat on as high as I dare turn it (what with trying to save money and all) I can feel the outside air drawing the heat from by body, demanding the warmth of my blood as a sacrifice. Winter is a primitive warrior, using ice cycles for arrows.

No. He is the archbishop of the other hell. The one that does in fact freeze over.

Someday, I will walk its banks and feel the cold and marvel in its beauty and it will not phase me. Not at all.